5-HT anyone?

I admit it, I’m depressed. Have been this entire semester, not sure what to do at this point. Its getting to the point where its interfering with my ability to get work done, I’ve got two big tests this week and I’m honestly considering asking one prof if I can take one on Monday if I can’t get my focus back soon. Don’t feel bad if you never noticed, this isn’t much at all compared to what I’m capable of smiling through. Damn common cold of mental illness, why must you come at such a bad time? I need my mind to work, not get wrapped up in stupidity and leave me feeling like I can’t breathe but for gasping and the gasping comes with the crying I can’t seem to get right.

I don’t really have much more to say, this feels like a chemical depression mostly…not really situational but if you feel like listening I think I feel like talking. And if you know how to give a hug that hits the soul and says “I care about you”, please feel free to throw one my way… I could use one. Not a false hug, or a half-assed “there there” hug, but one where I can just hang on until I actually feel some relief, one that’s sturdy and comforting like I’ve not had in so very very long. One you’re not embarrassed to give, and I’d understand if you would be. Its honestly asking a lot out of one embrace, and I won’t fault you for just a knowing smile the next time I see you. Those too are kind and much appreciated, sustaining in their own way.

This too shall pass.

~ by touristortransplant on March 31, 2008.